A little nap now and then
1:44 p.m. || January 12, 2007
Dear Diary,
Last night I had some sort of a spiritual experience. Enlightment if you might want to call it that. Out of the blue came the thought that "damn it, I AM going to university" I am going to work hard enough.
Of course the wine I had been drinking might have had something to do with my sudden inspiration but today I ordered the entrance exam books. I have five months to study. Plus I'm taking classes in open university. So if I bother more than usual, I shouhld be able to do it. I hope.
Well. I truly hope I won't let myself down this time.
The famous last words.
Yesterday we had our "Christmas lunch" for work. First we ate well adn then we drank well. I have to say by the time I got home around midnight I was pretty wasted. But we had fun. It's good to have those talks with your closest workmates what you really think about them, the good and the bad.
I'm not as hung over today as you might think. I was pretty surprised myself. Of course it was good I wasn't in bad shape in the morning because I had to go get the mail. Our driver made it to work around lunchtime. Not that I should have been driving either but luckily everything went well and I didn't run into anything, not even cops.
I am quite tired though. My boss almost walked on me while I was dozing off in my room. Luckily I had my eyes open when she came, sure I was sitting in a very relaxed position but at least I wasn't sleeping. I've noticed that a little nap sometimes helps. Just dozing off for 15 minutes can refresh enough. I do it on lectures actually. They start at 4.30pm, I go there after work so usually from around 5pm 'til 5.20pm I'm sleeping. Then I stay awake for the rest of it and have enough energy to actually pay attention too.
I was so drunk last night that I even txted TB. Well I was only telling him how weird it still was to go home without stopping at Esso. I also told him that I'm pretty drunk since I'm txting him.
He was over at my place last Saturday to pick up his Christmaspresent. This year I got him a model of a ship. I was suprised that he actually liked it since it was sort of a joke. Me and Saara once promised him that when we get rich we'll buy him a boat. So I decided since I'm not rich yet, I'll buy him a toyboat. I made him sit down for a while and chat with me since I won't be seeing him for a while.
I'm actually pretty interested to see how long it will take me until I go to Esso again. I'm trying to get until March. It's actually a lot easier now that I live further away. It takes more of an effort to go there and in the end I like my sleep. And I know if I go there I won't be leaving in an hour or two. That's the mainreason why I didn't go there last night even though there was the possibility.
I had been reading this diary before he came and I did try to talk to him something about us. I even started the sentence, but then I changed the subject without him knowing it.
I updated my 101 and cast. Had to. Lot of it has changed.
I'm wearing my senior sweatshirt today and it makes me feel like I'm 19 again. I still have some difficulties grasping the idea that I'll be turning 23 this year.